Go to the Up

I guess it is time to resurrect this thing. I guess a lot has changed since the last post, while many things have stayed the same.
I am still going to college. Only a couple of semesters away from graduating after so many years it seems less like an accomplishment than an inevitability. It is a frightening thing trying to figure out what to do after that. I have an idea in my head that it might be for the best if I just pull up my stakes and dive headlong into university life. Live on campus and everything. I would need to take out student loans to pay for it, but it would give me the perfect chance to give myself growth opportunities.

I had fallen into depression fairly badly a couple of months ago enough that it made me look for some help. I had also stumbled onto a web page for people who have Asperger's Syndrome. Basically it is a form of autism, but a much higher functioning form. I can't remember the exact search that had led me there, but I was trying to find out what is wrong with me. I was shocked at the many things that were exactly me. So uncannily similar. I spent the next month obsessively researching Aspergers on the internet and getting books from the library. As my bout of depression worsened I decided that I needed professional help and found a psychologist who works with people with Aspergers. I identified so much with them that I figured any help I was going to get should understand them as well.

I think I will post later about my visits and what I have learned from her. I just wanted this to be a renewal of my blog and I ended up getting somewhat rambling with it. Gomen nasai.