Monday, December 18, 2006
Now that I have gotten over my bout of illnesses, I am beginning to feel better emotionally. I am not really sure which came first, the depression or the illness. It could have been either.
I am feeling a bit restless. I want to do different things, new things. As usual I don't really have a clue what I really mean, I just feel kinda antsy.
I have had pretty much no interest in our weekly D&D game. I don't really want to quit, because that is most of my socializing and without Friday nights, I would end up sitting at home by myself watching movies or reading or just bored and lonely. On the other hand I am not enjoying the D&D sessions much at all. I feel that I would rather do something spontaneously, but I am never a very spontaneous type of person. I can never decide on what to spontaneously do. :)
I am torn between my enjoyment and the enjoyment of my friends. I don't want to disappoint them by quitting and I don't really think I would benefit from quitting, but I just am not enjoying it like I used to. I always have such a hard time reviewing things and giving reasons for them. Yet I seem to always plan out and over analyze choices. It is a strange paradoxial condition I know.
Because I feel like it and have never really tried it before, some haiku.
Like silent water
flowing on never ending
time passes away
Still water in pond
troubles in your life are like
a pebble thrown in
Ripples spread each way
waves washing the sandy beach
sweeping sand away
Every day the same
different footsteps are found
on the sandy shore
People are long gone
yet some traces left behind
is there some from me?
I am feeling a bit restless. I want to do different things, new things. As usual I don't really have a clue what I really mean, I just feel kinda antsy.
I have had pretty much no interest in our weekly D&D game. I don't really want to quit, because that is most of my socializing and without Friday nights, I would end up sitting at home by myself watching movies or reading or just bored and lonely. On the other hand I am not enjoying the D&D sessions much at all. I feel that I would rather do something spontaneously, but I am never a very spontaneous type of person. I can never decide on what to spontaneously do. :)
I am torn between my enjoyment and the enjoyment of my friends. I don't want to disappoint them by quitting and I don't really think I would benefit from quitting, but I just am not enjoying it like I used to. I always have such a hard time reviewing things and giving reasons for them. Yet I seem to always plan out and over analyze choices. It is a strange paradoxial condition I know.
Because I feel like it and have never really tried it before, some haiku.
Like silent water
flowing on never ending
time passes away
Still water in pond
troubles in your life are like
a pebble thrown in
Ripples spread each way
waves washing the sandy beach
sweeping sand away
Every day the same
different footsteps are found
on the sandy shore
People are long gone
yet some traces left behind
is there some from me?
Friday, December 08, 2006
I caught the flu last weekend and now I get to suffer the fatigue for the next few weeks. I still am also still a bit upset in the stomach now and then.
I am ready for this semester of school to be over. I had signed up for another 3 classes next semester, but I am almost positive that I am going to drop one class and only take two classes. After all a man needs to sleep some time. All of the late night classes and then waking up early to go to work had just worn me out. I don't get enough sleep and am tired all day. Either that or the fatigue is hitting me harder than I realized.
Finals start this Saturday and go through next week. I need my rest for tomorrow, so I am going to stay home tonight, take a nap, read a chapter from the book, and maybe watch a movie.
I am ready for this semester of school to be over. I had signed up for another 3 classes next semester, but I am almost positive that I am going to drop one class and only take two classes. After all a man needs to sleep some time. All of the late night classes and then waking up early to go to work had just worn me out. I don't get enough sleep and am tired all day. Either that or the fatigue is hitting me harder than I realized.
Finals start this Saturday and go through next week. I need my rest for tomorrow, so I am going to stay home tonight, take a nap, read a chapter from the book, and maybe watch a movie.
