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Plodding along life's road forgetting to appreciate the scenery.
That is how I feel lately. Just trudging along and not enjoying the journey. And it is all my fault. I have nothing to really complain or moan about, but I just seem to mope around regardless. I am pretty pathetic that way. Still have not convinced myself to stop at the coffee bar I pass by.

I never make New Year's resolutions, but I want to build up my comfort level in group situations. Any time I am in a group, but not able to just disappear into the group makes me terribly uncomfortable. I have become a master at disappearing into a crowd and thus removing myself from the crowd.

I want to spend more time outdoors once spring and summer come. This last year I was barely outside at all and it felt like I missed summer entirely. I want to take a Saturday and just walk the park or head to the beach, rather than be cooped up in the basement playing computer games. Maybe I should plan on spending at least every other Saturday outdoors. The other Saturdays I can help tidy the yard and get some fresh air that way.