Friday, December 23, 2005
Not getting in the Holiday spirit
It is strange. I don't really have anything to grumble or complain about. Everything in my life is going fine.
Yet I just don't seem to get that Christmas spirit. I am not really grumpy like the scrooge, but I am not joyful either. I seem to be in a limbo like ehh... state of mind. Almost like it does not really matter to me if Christmas comes or not. We have not even put up a Christmas tree this year and that doesn't even phase me. This blah feeling has spread though more and more of my life and is starting to bother me. I like being happy and grinning like a fool all the time, but I just don't seem to find the motivation I used to have.
I have heard that men have a monthly cycle, but unlike a woman's a man's is entirely emotional. Maybe it is true and I am going through something like that. Or maybe I just need a special someone in my life.
I am probably one of the lucky few who get along fine with all the relatives that I have and I look forward to holidays where I can go up north and visit the grandfolks. I usually go with my parents as my navigation skills are so terrible there is no telling what state I would end up in. Of course this year my parents said that they are heading north around Christmas/New Years time. This does not really help with scheduling days off as that is like 2 weeks. I'll work something out.
I finally got my car back from being repaired yesterday. It looks fantastic and drives like new. They even washed the car real good (something which I had been meaning to do for some time now). In celibration of my mobility I went out and finished my Christmas shopping. So time to wrap everything in 2 days.
Merry Christmas everyone!
Yet I just don't seem to get that Christmas spirit. I am not really grumpy like the scrooge, but I am not joyful either. I seem to be in a limbo like ehh... state of mind. Almost like it does not really matter to me if Christmas comes or not. We have not even put up a Christmas tree this year and that doesn't even phase me. This blah feeling has spread though more and more of my life and is starting to bother me. I like being happy and grinning like a fool all the time, but I just don't seem to find the motivation I used to have.
I have heard that men have a monthly cycle, but unlike a woman's a man's is entirely emotional. Maybe it is true and I am going through something like that. Or maybe I just need a special someone in my life.
I am probably one of the lucky few who get along fine with all the relatives that I have and I look forward to holidays where I can go up north and visit the grandfolks. I usually go with my parents as my navigation skills are so terrible there is no telling what state I would end up in. Of course this year my parents said that they are heading north around Christmas/New Years time. This does not really help with scheduling days off as that is like 2 weeks. I'll work something out.
I finally got my car back from being repaired yesterday. It looks fantastic and drives like new. They even washed the car real good (something which I had been meaning to do for some time now). In celibration of my mobility I went out and finished my Christmas shopping. So time to wrap everything in 2 days.
Merry Christmas everyone!
# posted by kc masterpiece @ 8:55 AM 
