Tuesday, November 13, 2007
I have no ability to post regularily
I am always apologizing for the infrequent posts. I guess a lot of the time I just don't feel that I have anything to say here. I try and not let my mind drift too much as I tend to gather a lot of strange thoughts and a lot of them I don't feel like dealing with right now.
I am doing it bachelor style this week. I noticed that I have a tendency to go into mega cleaning mode when stressed. I ran out of checks and thought I had another box of them still. I ended up cleaning most of my room, tossing out tons of junk trying to find the checks. This running out of checks sat on me for a few days until I got my butt out to the bank and got some temporary checks and reordered some. Why do most things that I stress out over so much end up being really simple when I can get myself to do them.
I found myself cleaning the bathtub due to stress and then washing the dishes and cleaning the stove and microwave just to give myself something to do and keep busy with. I was talking to myself the whole time while I was washing the dishes. In between bursts of sobbing that is. I didn't realize how worked up I was getting that I couldn't deal with trying to pull out into this mass of traffic to go to school. This frustrated me and I went home and into the cleaning spree.
I hate that I seem to loose almost all my memory of what happened during times when I get all emotional. It is like my brain just stops recording things. It is particularly frustrating when trying to think back on what tipped me over, what was adding stress without me noticing. What I did while stressed. All so hazy and hard to piece together.
I think if I really get myself to type these things out it will solidify it in my own head. I kinda do the same thing with note taking at school. If I just go to class I forget so much, but if I actually just write down notes they stick and I can recall them pretty well. I guess that it gives myself something to focus on and keep myself from getting distracted. It also gives me a visual element to trying to learn rather than having to rely on my auditory sense.
Well to anyone from WrongPlanet, I feel for you if you actually read through that mess all the way to get to here. If you just skipped to the bottom, good choice and thanks for visiting.
I am doing it bachelor style this week. I noticed that I have a tendency to go into mega cleaning mode when stressed. I ran out of checks and thought I had another box of them still. I ended up cleaning most of my room, tossing out tons of junk trying to find the checks. This running out of checks sat on me for a few days until I got my butt out to the bank and got some temporary checks and reordered some. Why do most things that I stress out over so much end up being really simple when I can get myself to do them.
I found myself cleaning the bathtub due to stress and then washing the dishes and cleaning the stove and microwave just to give myself something to do and keep busy with. I was talking to myself the whole time while I was washing the dishes. In between bursts of sobbing that is. I didn't realize how worked up I was getting that I couldn't deal with trying to pull out into this mass of traffic to go to school. This frustrated me and I went home and into the cleaning spree.
I hate that I seem to loose almost all my memory of what happened during times when I get all emotional. It is like my brain just stops recording things. It is particularly frustrating when trying to think back on what tipped me over, what was adding stress without me noticing. What I did while stressed. All so hazy and hard to piece together.
I think if I really get myself to type these things out it will solidify it in my own head. I kinda do the same thing with note taking at school. If I just go to class I forget so much, but if I actually just write down notes they stick and I can recall them pretty well. I guess that it gives myself something to focus on and keep myself from getting distracted. It also gives me a visual element to trying to learn rather than having to rely on my auditory sense.
Well to anyone from WrongPlanet, I feel for you if you actually read through that mess all the way to get to here. If you just skipped to the bottom, good choice and thanks for visiting.
